Empty

Sunday night I climbed into bed at about 3:00 in the morning. My mind racing, I was feeling so many emotions and really just pretty numb. I was officially released as Primary President. I cannot believe the things I've learned and how much I can really love 160 children. I remember looking over this same list of children over a year and half ago and not knowing very many people and feeling like I had a lot of names to learn and a lot of families to learn about. As I sat at Emilee's house (my wonderful friend and new Primary President) the other night and went over each name, each child, each teacher . . . I laughed, cried, rolled my eyes at funny things that happened and just felt an overwhelming love for each one of them.

I know that this is one very big way in which our Heavenly Father has provided us a way to learn to love like he does. Serving someone will bring true Charity so quick! I've put my heart and soul into this calling and fell short in so many ways (I'm sure) and made many mistakes, but I'm so grateful for forgiveness and that I have the opportunity to pick up and try again.

I've loved this opportunity that the Lord has given me. It was not easy, but I felt blessings pour down upon me, Justin, Sarah, Spence, and even little Alli that I cannot count. I know we were completely lifted through trial after trial and given strength physically, emotionally, and spiritually to accomplish what we needed to. Heaven sent angels would appear out of no where to help all of the time. I'm amazed that I was able to be a part of something so much bigger than me.

As I left Emilee's house the other night I went to pick up my church keys and binder--you know, my other arm. We just both giggled and I knew she understood. Right now I do feel that title of this blog--a little empty. On Sunday I'll probably feel relieved as I sit and fidget in Relief Society. I guess I just wait anxiously to see what Heavenly Father has in store for me next.